Being busy with my school and hospital duties, most people thought that I’m losing my relationship with God. I realized that in the end, it’s only me who can tell.
Right now, all I can say is that, everyday, I can’t thank God enough for all his grace and mercy towards me. His blessings are overflowing and it overwhelms me. I know that I failed him so many times, that even my mere use of logic can dent my understanding of him but still he shows me even in the littlest way that he loves me, just like how he loves us all.
I would say that due to my hardships and me, lacking of so many things, I learned to put my faith and trust to God so that I can overcome my old self and just be better everyday.
It’s not a matter of believing to someone who is stronger because I see my self as a weak person, rather, it’s a quest that I decided to go to so that I’d be able to become a greater person; the person that I longed to be.
I’ll continue to seek you Lord, regardless of what other people would say.